Questions Awaiting Answers

Linkin Park in "By Myself":

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams?
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? (Full lyrics)

Enigma in "Why":

Why it has to be like this
Why we don't realize
Why we're too blind to see the one
Who's always on our side

I'm asking why
I'm asking why
Nobody gives an answer
I'm just asking why (Full lyrics)

Anathema in "Forgotten Hopes":

Hey you.. rotting in your alcoholic shell
Banging on the walls of your intoxicated mind
Do you ever wonder why you were left alone
As your heart grew colder and finally turned to stone (Full lyrics)

Opinion: If I Were A Girl!

Let me put it straight-forward for all of my readers: If I were a girl, i would pop my cherry with my own fingers... If you are not sure what "cherry" i am talking about, let me rephrase it this way: If i were a girl, i'd break my own hymen on my own!!
But why would a girl want to do that?! Simple: To piss "someone" off!!

Now seriously, a girl's sexual history is no-one's god damned business; Not even her husband's god damned buisiness!!
On a more serious note: Why would she even need to provide evidence of virginity even if she was one? Its purely degrading i think!
Yeah right, its like i say: "Honey am a horny lusty virgin slut, do me wildly!", then we fuck and he ends up saying: "But... but... U didnt bleed!"; So what big jerk: cant he take my word for it?! "Screw you, fuck the hell off my face!" i would say then, but only if it would have really mattered, which i dont think it would cuz then i'd probably have only wanted to get laid!!

I mean, you know those corn oil advertisements that say: "Make sure the Aluminuim foil is intact before you open it"; Do you see any distinction? None from where i stand, its an exact match!!

No more cherries for you honey: So Fuck Off!! 00100

PS: Try at your own risk

Darwinistic Evolution Of Truth: Part 1 - Introduction

Survival of the fittest is one of the most respected and simply sophisticated theories of our time... In many occasions i have showed my admiration for this theory... The most important consequence of this theory is my personal view that i call: "Evolution of truth";

To be specific, it doesn't mean that truth morphs through time, but rather our understanding of truth morphs through time.

Lets face it, our understanding of physics and almost all other sciences is derived from our limited perception of the world around us.... Lack of understanding, and misconception will stay there forever; yet, truth always stands out from the crowd! Not necessarily quickly, but it eventually will.... Our perception of the world around us will be put to trial on every occasion we try to apply our theories about the world around us; The misconceptions will fail to explain the phenomenons that we observe!

We all know the old "spontaneous generation" theory that suggested that:

According to Aristotle it was a readily observable truth that aphids arise from the dew which falls on plants, fleas from putrid matter, mice from dirty hay, and so forth. (source)

In accordance to the perception of those people, it was obvious that 'spontaneous generation' does happen... But as we always know, "mutations" will come in the way!
New mutant ideologies did evolve and competed for survival against the prevailing 'spontaneous generation' ideology... At that time, truth (maybe not complete truth, but merely a better perception) was nothing more than very few mutants; A similar example is how the spherical earth thesis, has been long time ago challenged by the flat earth thesis!! But truth is always way much solid than falsehood; Perception of Truth evolved! We now know better....

Not all lies are equally "bad"; the really bad ones are eliminated first; the more serious and obvious a falsehood is, the sooner it will go away; that's natural!! You cant jump up ladders, you go one step at a time. In other words, 'spontaneous generation' was a weakly supported perception of the world, so it got way before than the theory of "atomism" (Greek word atomos which means "that which cannot be cut into smaller pieces"), as atoms were not as easily observable as living organisms are.

Much like in the animal kingdom, no animal is invincible (ie. we don't have perfect perception of our world), but there are always the strong, the stronger, and the weak!! Once the weak ones are out, a new series of competition will take place between the remaining strong ones, and so forth forever!

In this context, i bet you that a D-student in our time, can easily out-smart an A+-student in 1000 BC; and an A+-student of our time, is such a big failure against a D-student in 3000 AC!

In this series:
Darwinistic Evolution Of Truth: Part 1 - Introduction
Darwinistic Evolution Of Truth: Part 2 - Religious Wars
Darwinistic Evolution Of Truth: Part 3 - The Importance Of Liberal Thought

Personal DNA Report

A fairly good personality test, here is my result:
My Personal DNA Report

According to their results, i am a "generous analyst", which is fairly truthful.

Distinguished personality traits:
- High Introversion (Not outgoing)
- High Agency (Believe that my own actions determine the outcome of events)
- High Spontaneity (Comfortable at making spur-of-the-moment decisions)
- Low Authoritarianism (Non-conformist)
- Highly Functional (Cares how things work, rather than how they look)

It is also worth noticing that i failed to conform to either gender stereotypes: Not a male stereotypes, and not a female either...

Unsettling Chat Excerpt

Girl: blah.. blah.. blah.. blah.. Anyways, there is this guy who has been chasing me for quiet a while, seems he wants to befriend me... But what the hell, after all: I am worth the trouble.... Am I not?
(Trying to hint that I don't pay her attention)
Girl: Or what do you think ...(Looking at me).. Zaid?
Me: Very true
Girl: Liar
Me: Why do you call me a liar?
Girl: Because your are a liar, you don't really think i'm worth the trouble!
Me: Uh, Hell! Don't call me a liar, please! I do think you're worth the trouble. But anyways, you know what: you have the right to think whatever the hell you want to think!

This little excerpt is seriously flawed!! First of all, if one already know the answer to a question, why do they ask it in the first place? The question had only a Boolean answer: True or False. So if one was so sure that true was not the right answer then it needs no questions to figure that false is the right one! Just don't ask a Boolean question when you have prejudice on the outcome of that question!

Let's get on the second more interesting part: I am a satanist, and being such I know that selfishness is the golden rule! So hell, it needs no questioning: You are worth the trouble because its YOU!! So if anyone was so sure that you are worth the trouble, this one needs to be YOU - not me!! I wouldn't ask anyone if I am worth the trouble, because I KNOW I am... and similarly no-one needs to ask anyone else what they are worth, because nothing is worth anything without YOU, and you know it (or at least supposed to); And if one is ignorant to that, it's their problem!

Finally, if one is calling someone agreeing with them a liar: what does that make of them?

Guess that's one more person on the list of people I can never understand!!!

The Words Of The Best Rapper

Eminem in "If I Had":

If I had a magic wand, I'd make the world suck my dick
without a condom on, ....
If I had one wish
I would ask for a big enough ass for the whole world to kiss (Full lyrics)

Eminem in "Still Don't Give A Fuck":

A lot of people think.. that I worship the devil..
that I do all types of.. retarded shit
Look, I can't change the way I think
And I can't change the way I am
But if I offended you? Good
Cause I still don't give a fuck (Full lyrics)

Also, in "If I Had":

You know what I'm saying?
I'm tired of all of this bullshit
Telling me to be positive
How'm I 'sposed to be positive when I don't see shit positive?
Know what I'm sayin?
I rap about shit around me, shit I see
Know what I'm sayin? Right now I'm tired of everything (Full lyrics)

No wonder Eminem is rated as one of the best rappers cause this guy aint talk stupid shit, just plain right shit.... Additionally, in a previous post i featured his kick-ass "Rain Man" song; I'd recommend that you check that quote if you dont already know that song (here)....

The Incredible Mode Of Pleasure

Slipknot in "Gently":

Gently my mind escapes into the relaxing mode of pleasure
A pleasure that will take my mind off the reality of life
My past life
Life as I know it know
And whatever may come it slowly disappears
to somewhere in the back of my mind
It will remain there until I wish to retrieve it

Yes I will stay here for awhile for I need the break
A break from the pressures of life
and everything that lay in the palm of life's hands

This mode is incredible
It's out of this world
Too bad I must always leave it
But that's life

That's life

OOPS, i need a kleenex now!!

The Hate Dogma

Life is not about how much fun you have, but how much misery you create

-Fictional Terrorist

DAAH!!

PS: A fictional quote made up for sarcasm

Suck My Dick, Will Ya?

One of the cool ranting blog has featured an article titled: "10 Ways to get a Girl to Suck your Dick".... The list is realistic, and i wanted to feature the tenth item for the harsh reality in it:

10) Stop being yourself. No, I mean you need to be someone completely different. Have you taken a look at yourself? Would you blow you? I wouldn't. Neither would anyone else. You need to alter the very fabric of your being, and maybe -- maybe -- you can get some skank to put your dick in her mouth.

Lets remmember always that non-advertized goods dont get sales!!

Question: Faithful Or Careful?

Me: Faced with the choice of being either faithful or careful, what do you choose?
Friend 1: Careful
Friend 2: Faithful
Me: U know, its a tough call, but i'd chose to be faithful
(So i go to the cashier and order)
Me: 3 Shawerma double... 2 Chicken, 1 meat

Hint: We always order Chicken shawerma, which are now feared to be contaminated with bird flu

Intellectual Digital Stripper

Alys (EGirl): Do u mind if i take off my skirt?
Player: No, not yet. First tell me why you chose to do this job!
Alys (EGirl): Fair enough. Sometimes people wonder why i think its alright to take my clothes off in front of others. Some call me immoral, others a slut. To be forthright, i think its funny that sexuality is so shunned in almost every society and culture.
I think that in being open in my own sexuality, i am helping to bring sexuality out into the open in society, hopefully one day it will no longer be shunned, and seen for what it is: a natural and essential part of life.

This excerpt was ripped off an "interactive 3D sex game" called EGirl. The game is actually lame, but i admired the digital stripper's attitude! Maybe we need more people like her....

I had previously posted a closely related excerpt:
Check it here

Carnal love

Korn in "Liar":

It's not wrong to let go
And let the woman ride you
For fuck sake, don't lose touch
With the dog that's inside you
She wanted what you had
You bet she smelt the spore
Don't give up, fuck her up (Full lyrics)

Korn in "Make Me Bad":

What does it mean to you?
For me it's something I just do.
I want something.
I need to feel the sickness in you (Full lyrics)

Marilyn Manson in "Sweet Dreams":

I'm gonna use you and abuse you.
I'm gonna know what's inside.
Gonna use you and abuse you.
I'm gonna know what's inside you. (Full lyrics)

Screwing Fire For Fun

Recently, i figured a cool way to reach fame pretty quickly.... Its simple: Convert to Islam; The next day convert back to ur old book, or someother religion of your choice; Now some Islam high command will make a "Wanted dead" big announcement, and in no-time at all, u'll have all the media coverage u ever dreamt of!!

Just watchout for a nuclear war when more than half of the world becomes "wanted dead", we dont want the fun to turn into tragedy; Am i right, or what?

PS: Try at your own risk
PS: Inspired by this news entry

God: The Satanic Definition

To the Satanist "God" - by whatever name he is called, or by no name at all - is seen as the balancing factor in nature, and not as being concerned with suffering. This powerful force which permeates and balances the universe is far too impersonal to care about the happiness or misery of flesh-and-blood creatures on this ball of dirt upon which we live.

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / Wanted: God Dead Or Alive (PDF)

Long Term Planning

In the long run, we're all dead

-John Maynard Keynes

Homicidal Minds And Handguns

Papa roach in "Tightrope":

My words are weapons, in which i murder you with
Please dont be scared, please do not turn your head
We are the future the 21st century dyslexic, glue sniffing cybersluts
With homicidal minds and handguns
We are insane, nothing will change
We are insane, nothing will change (Full lyrics)

U Dont Know Me!

Slipknot just puts it nicely in "My Plague":

I don't mind being ogled,ridiculed
Made to feel minuscule
If you consider the source,it's kinda pitiful
The only thing you really know about me is...
...that's all you'll ever know (Full lyrics)

And not less eloquently, POD puts it beatifully in "Anything Right":

I can't do anything right
You don't know me, stay out of my life
Kick me while I'm down, I want you to
I can't be like you
Don't want to be like you (Full lyrics)

Finally, Linking Park in their mysterious ways in "Easier To Run":

Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret I've kept locked away
No one can ever see (Full lyrics)

Pathetic Oblivion Forever

I always thought i wanted more out of my life.... Today, i realized that what i really want is NOTHING!

Satanism Demands Study - Not Worship

On the front cover flap of "The Satanic Rituals", Lavey wrote:

Satanism is a vital philosophy which asks you to take your fate in your own hands--break the barriers that confine you--sweep aside all that is smothering you--realize your full innate power. The most important commandment of Satanism is: Satanism demands study - not worship.

Solid Existance And Vital Actions

The Satanist realizes that man, and the action and reaction of the universe, is responsible for everything, and doesn't mislead himself into thinking that someone cares.

The Satanist, realizing that anything he gets is of his own doing, takes command of the situation instead of praying to God for it to happen. Positive thinking and positive action add up to results. Just as the Satanist does not pray to God for assistance, he does not pray for forgiveness for his wrong doings. In other religions, when one commits a wrong he either prays to God for forgiveness, or confesses to an intermediary and asks him to pray to God for forgiveness for his sins. The Satanist knows that praying does no good, confessing to another human being, like himself, accomplishes even less - and is, furthermore, degrading.

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / Wanted: God Dead Or Alive (PDF)

The Sophisticated Way To Rape

Attempting to get in touch with my creative side, i am proud to present a cartoon to promote rape... CLICK HERE to see the cartoon!

PS: The cartoon is ironic satire
PS: The cartoon does NOT necessarily represent the views of the author

Victimless Crime Is Not A Crime

A crime is a violation of someone's right, so obviously an action that doesn't violate anyone's rights is not a crime....

Public order crimes, or alternatively called victimless crimes SHOULD NEVER be prohibited by law... Such activities include: Drugs, prostitution, suicide, pre-marital sex, homosexuality.... etc.
Whose rights does drug addiction violate? No-one! Yes, thats right... Why should a suicidal person take more shit? If two people agree to have sex (for cash or love), whose rights are being violated? In what ways are heterosexual people more "straight" than homosexuals? Why do heterosexual couples have the right to get married, while homosexual couples do not?

Every single one of these laws VIOLATES the rights of individuals, therefore such laws should be abolished!! Yes, an individual has the right to use drugs, commit suicide (and even get external assistance to do that), engage in sexual act with any consenting partner of their choice.... only to name a few of the widely criminalized rights...

Debates Over Freedom - Part 3: Darwinistic Freedom

Lets first agree on one concept; The concept is dubbed as questionable, so it might be viewed as an assumption rather than necessarily factual; Refraining from committing one's initial choice is not seen as lack of Freedom, but rather as a Freedom in itself. What matters is that one had the choice of course of action, and acting out what seems reasonable is a matter of choice.
This means that Freedom in itself can backfire and lead to unfavorable consequences;

Freedom is Darwinistic feature: The fitter (stronger?) lays out the rules and others can either submit or fight. The fitter doesn't have to be a single person: it could be an authority, a community, or even just a simple idea.
In this sense, we can see law makers as being fit to their positions: They lay out the rules; The law enforcement force is the 'muscle' of that position... In short, the laws are not viewed as lack of Freedom, but rather as a practiced Freedom of people in position to influence the Freedom of others.

Thus, somehow I find it absurd to 'support' true anarchism! The thing is our world is actually already lawless; Anarchic system is intuitively ruled by the fitter (rule of the jungle), and in the case of human societies, the fitter happens to be an authority they don't like: The government!
Human communities are nothing more than a civilized jungle!

In this series:
Debates Over Freedom - Part 1: Introduction
Debates Over Freedom - Part 2: The Dilemma
Debates Over Freedom - Part 3: Darwinistic Freedom
Next: Debates Over Freedom - Part 4: Pipe Dreams

Liberty And No Compromise

"Any society that would give up a little liberty to gain a little security will deserve neither and lose both." (source)

-Benjamin Franklin

Amen to that!

Majoritarian Democracy Is Bullshit

The will of the majority is one of the most stupid systems i ever heard of... OK, i want to go to the bathroom now,,, but ohh wait, lets see if more than 50% of people on earth think that i should go to the bathroom; it perfectly makes sense, i have to take the opinions of totally unconcerned people to give me the right to mind my own buissiness.... Suckaaarz!!

"A democracy is nothing more than an angry mob, where fifty-one percent of the people may take away the rights of the other forty-nine." (source)

-Thomas Jefferson

In this vision, a more balanced system emerged under the name of "liberal democracy" in which the rights of the individuals and minorities are reserved! Liberal democracy is naturally not a perfect system, but it surely is one of the best practical democratic systems.....

PS: This blog is not affiliated with any political parties

Behind The Walls Of Denial

Inspired by a fellow blogger's post (updated link), i decided to write about the different faces people adopt through their lives...

Each person has at least seven different egos (self-images) that define them:
1- Who you are. 2- Who you think you are.
3- Who you want others to think you are. 4- Who others think you are.
5- Who you hate to be. 6- Who you refuse to be.
7- Who you want to be.

In addition, person's attitudes differ with changing environments, or and his personality develops with time....

The seven faces describbed above are defined by the individual progressive experiences with the world around them; having conflicts amoung those self-images can sometimes be a serious problem.... For example, being a totally different person than the person you think you really are should introduce confusion, and shows lack of self-discovery; Thinking that you are the person you hate to be could lead to distorted self-image; And big differences between the person you are, and what you want others to think of you might leads to disapointment and eventually self-alienation.....

There are some other nessary masks that people need to stick to; Actually i dont like to call them masks, i prefer to call them "standards"; The standards should not be confused with nor lead to masking yourself...
The most important of these standards are the professional standards, for example, if you work at a public office, the client has no interest in your person: He just wants his papers done, so taking out your frustration, bitterness, and anger on that unrelated person is not acceptable....

The truth is, we all hide behind masks one time or the other; Be it a subtle masks, or masks that changes us unrecognizably; The cause of these masks can differ between insecurities, dishonesty, courtesy, or simply habbit.... That being said, i think it is important to recognize those masks we put on ourselves; Its probably unwise to randomly drop those masks, but recognizing them at least should help us see where we are leading ourselves.....

My Theory Of: "Nothing Can Go Wrong"

My theory is simple: Anything that happens has a truth value as TRUE! This view is derived from the materialist view of the world... Physics has a truth value because it is self-preserving! Consider the simple rule of gravity: does physics need any guardian to make sure that all objects follow the "law of gravity"? Nope! because such rule is not breakable in the first place.. There is no kind of rule stating: "if an object doesn't experience the force of gravity it will be sentenced to death"

Thus, nothing can go wrong when nature exhibits gravity; For a true rule there are no exception; Another way to put this is as stated before: Anything that happens has a truth value as TRUE! Similarly, a theory or a law where "something can go wrong" has truth value as FALSE!!
In other words, TRUTH is self-preserving...

PS: The truth value of Newton's laws is not relevant to this debate

Indulging Suicidal Thoughts

Don't you at times just wanna get to an end? Why live in the torment of our pathetic lives? All those assholes you meet every fucking day, day after day... year after year: Nothing changes! You're just stuck in a place where you cant breath; Lonely in the shell you made for yourself... No signs of deliverance; Just more brutal fuckers fucking every day of your life... Sickening fuckers who just cant leave you alone!! And if they do: you're just a lonely bastard hating everyday of your life cuz you have no-one next to your side! Hell is on earth! Sick of everything!!! FUCK EVERYTHING!!!

Everyday we start with a new lie to keep us through another fucked up day; The constant lies just get lame; You can't buy the same lie every fucking new day, can you? Are those things you long for in your life ever gonna make you happy? If so why can't just have them for today and end the torment? Or is just playing "hard to get" with the most fucking bitch you know: Life?! Is it really cool to keep playing that game for how long? 10 years? 20? 30? 100? FUCK its gets me sick the second it starts!! Sick and tired, but the lie is so tempting.... Why can't I just wake up? Why cant i just come to my senses? Will my life be any better? Is it worth the wait? Guess NOT!!!

Now everytime I try to make it i have a pending lie waiting in line; "When this lie ends", I tell myself, "I'll make it"; But the lies never seem to end.... I wonder when i can start to see clearly, and be able pluck all of my courage for my last cause on this fucked up globe....

Marilyn Manson is absolutely correct, "Suicide Is Painless":

The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say

Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please (Full lyrics)

Sickening People On A Sickening Dirt Ball

Smile Empty Soul in "All My Problems":

My god
Look at his tattoos and those earrings
He could never get
a good job
Go home and beat your kids
So they don't turn out as bad as me (Full lyrics)

Smile Empty Soul in "Every Sunday":

I don't have time for your solutions
And i don't wanna deal with your mistakes
No matter how much medication
the doctor says i need to take
I still say....

You're the ones that kill your babies
You're the ones that fuck your kids
You're the ones that throw each other away
You're the ones sitting in church every sunday

And i don't want your religions
And i don't need your sympathies
And i don't want a part of all your hatred
No matter how much you yell at me (Full lyrics)

Dont u just love to say "Fuck off" to just every face that pass you by?! I know i do!

Slacking Me: Four Days Off

This semister i worked to fit my university schedule on just three days: sunday, tuesday, and thursday... so now i got monday, wednesday, as well as, friday and saturday off!! YAY, im gonna have loads of time to sleep as much as i wish... I registered for only 14 credit hours at university two of which are labs; Last semister, i took 17 credit hours and they were like hell: i didnt have any time to breath; the worst parts of it came when i had to deliver the final project versions; after that i made up my mind that im not gonna stress myself again, and not burden myself five days a week, so that i can have time for myself, and have sometime for fun during the semister... So far, I am enjoying my decision!

Cool Geeky Stuff - Round 2

Few days ago my friend Ghaith came to my place bringing his latest work: It was a simple circuit -a proof of concept type of circuit- which has a 7-segment digit display and a push button! Each time the button is pressed the digit displayed is incremented by one...

It was fun learning how such simple circuit is assembled: tiny details that one wouldnt consider except when assembling it with his own hands; It was also fun toying with the microcontroller's program attempting to make it do different stuff, like for example counting 3 at a time, or blinking after each button push... As well as our failed attempt to implement a fade-in fade-out effect which was at least fun to think about... Those functions are implemented through a special type of assembly language specific to that microcontroller, which through a device connected to the serial line on the computer is downloaded on that microcontroller!! It was simply engaging!

Guess the next step now is to achieve a breakthrough in the world of sensors: for example implementing a distance sensor through which we can display the distance between that sensor and a certain object; Making a circuit capable of doing that will open up a whole new world of invention possibilities -to me and my friend-!!

As been hinted in the previous title "Cool Geeky Stuff", this semester i am taking the digital logic design lab which seems promising and interesting...

Personal Experience: Doubt Is Necessary

My first signs of doubt wore on me back in childhood: I am not sure about the exact age, but it probably was around 8 yrs old (ie. 3rd grade) back in the days when you were supposed to think that one hundred is the largest number ever, and back in the days when you were supposed to think that (4 minus 8) is not a calculable mathematical value... But I knew better, because back in those days I had one god that won't lie to me: The Calculator...

As most of you know, back in those days the calculator was a forbidden fruit... Yes, that was the case: truth was a forbidden fruit!! But just like any reasonable person: Forbidden fruits... then its time for indulgence. My calculator was my proof; No authority on earth could have told me that my calculator gave a wrong answer: It just won't lie!

Now back to the main story: 3rd grade teachers claimed that you cannot subtract a number from another number larger than it (eg. you cannot evaluate 4 minus 8), so I instantly asked my god: are they lying to me? I made that simple test: [4] [-] [8] [=] and to my surprise it did give an answer: the answer was -4!! I went to dad and asked him about that strange phenomenon: "If I had 4 apples and I want to give someone 8 apples, how can I do that?", my dad gave me a quite brilliant answer: "You give him 4 apples, and you are still in debt to him yet another 4 apples, that's the meaning of the negative sign next to the 4; you are 4 apples short to give him 8 apples."; At that time, I didn't quite understand the mathematical meaning of the negative sign but I just knew that (4 minus 8 equals -4)....

Later on, during one exam similar questions were given where a small number is subtracted from a larger number, so instead of putting the answer the teacher wants me to put, I just thought: "fuck the system!" and did the subtraction making sure to put a negative sign next to that answer... To my surprise the teacher marked the answers with a ZERO, so as any reasonable person I went to her and objected! She said: "You can't subtract a small number from a bigger number that why you got a ZERO!"; so I argued: "I know, that's why I put a negative sign next to it.", She said: "Things don't work like that!"; "The calculator says that they do work that way, and I can show you if you want!" I argued; "You are not supposed to use a calculator, and this mark you are not getting it!"; I just gave up, yes I gave up the argument but in my head somehow I knew I was right... and that's why even in later exams I just did the subtraction my way even though I knew that the teacher will put a ZERO on them;

From that day I realized that I cannot just trust anyone to give me a straight piece of info, especially not a classroom teacher, and till this day I find even university teachers(or doctors, if you want to call them) making teaching mistakes without even allowing anyone to question their words... On that day, I also realized that the calculator is a great device and today I am working to become a computer engineer so that I can understand how the GOD of my childhood days works on the inside....

Fucked Up Morning RELOADED

Morning is the begining of a new day full of shit;
LimpBizkit say it all in "Break Stuff":

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off (Full lyrics)

Morning is when more people put expectation on you;
Avril Lavigne touches this aspect in "Naked":

I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes (Full lyrics)

Morning is when a new lie has to be made up to keep you going though that fucked up day;
Linkin Park thinks so too in "With You":

I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static,
and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be
where I'm not anymore (Full lyrics)

Unrequited Love: What About It?

Some blogging girl have featured this quote: "You know it's love when all you wanna do is spend time with the other person, and you sort of know that the other person feels the same way too". (source)

It challenged me: The first part was ok; the second part was very questionable; I remmember i once read something that goes like this (and i happen to agree):
Reciprocal Love: is when two people are lucky to have unrequited love for eachother! (source)

Doubt: The Reader's Responsibility

It has been said "the truth will make men free". The truth alone has never set anyone free. It is only DOUBT which will bring mental emancipation. Without the wonderful element of doubt, the doorway through which truth passes would be tightly shut, impervious to the most strenuous poundings of a thousand Lucifers.

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / The Enlightment (PDF)

Doubt is the best quality of any thinker!! Non-liberal authorities take the responsibility to censor and verify the credibility of published information. On the contrary, in this blog (as well as any publication under liberal terms): The reader is assumed to be mature and responsible; This means that it is the reader's responsibility to judge the credibility and validity of arguments proposed on this blog as well as any other material they read.

The reader takes full responsibility to think of what they read. The readers should not take what they read for granted, but rather are assumed the responsibility of forming their own personal opinions based on what they read, as well as, reason!

Now, besides God's notoriety for being the biggest liar of all liars: Did you really expect the devil -the saint of all saints- not to lie occasionally? Sure not! Even Satan would speak lies from time to time; Even if it was not some deliberate lie, it could be an honest mistake.... so don't be naive and just buy every word you read here and there!

In this blog: offensive language is used all the time; drugs and suicide were once promoted; at some other time, a scientifically challenged article has been written; lately a biased opinion based on my personal judgement and experience has been introduced; and God forbid, once a licence to kill has been announced.... Nannying the reader is NOT to be assumed; Raising a perfect child is NOT a goal; and censoring every thought marked as controversial will never be enacted: Instead, the reader knows what's best for themselves, so they better go for that! And for those who don't know what's best for themselves, they have two choices: (1)Stop reading and wait for mama to approve everything they read, or (2)read-on and be ready for doom....

This blog allows commentors to provide both for and against arguments on posts; its the reader's responsibility to form a reasonable judgement based on the debates presented in those posts and comments.... Assuming that readers of this blog are humans, it is perfectly natural phenomenon that not all opinions presented are necessarily identical or compatible....

Arabic: The Fucked Up Language

Sadly, this semester i am taking 'Arabic 101' course at university! I tell u, THIS FUCKING SUCKS!!! With this optimistic attitude, i came into the first lecture 10 minutes late: As usual i enter the class with minimal fuss so as not to disturb the running of the class... but the teacher cant just take that; so he decided to waste few minutes of the golden time of the lecture to teach me manners! Manners: who the fuck are you kidding, i don't deal with that crap! What the fuck he wants from me? Well he wants me to say: 'Alsalam 3laykom' (a greeting in the Arabic language)! Shit, why the fuck should i greet him that i enter his class.... some people u just can never understand!

The bullshit didn't stop right there, but the lecture itself was a piece of crap; I mean who cares what history did Arabs and Muslims have? Surely not me, cuz that's crappy info that no-one needs except maybe: Historians; absolutely not a computer engineer!

I can swear that Arabic 101 has nothing to do with Arabic as a language! I remember in my IGCSE days we used to learn how to write in Arabic; Memorizing some poem or historical event has no place in an Arabic language course... Shit: British buttholes know how to teach the Arabic language better than the Arabs themselves... but who am i to tell some stubborn Arab shitheads how to teach their own language!!! Fuck off! 00100

I'm pretty much concerned i might actually fail the course, or get a just above 50 mark, which can easily sabotage my total average since i suck at memorizing stuff like that; Lets just hope for best!

PS: This post has a biased POV

Knees Deep In The Darkness

Korn in "Alive":

I can not ever find a way
To throw these darkened thoughts away
Need a place to hide
Its thrown in my face everyday
Guess thats the price I have to pay
For whats inside my mind (Full lyrics)

Korn in "Did My Time":

Realized I can never win
Sometimes I feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin
My mind is laughing at me (Full lyrics)

Linkin Park in "By Myself":

By myself [myself]
I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself (Full lyrics)

Psychic Vampires: Slay 'Em

Many people who walk the earth practice the fine art of making others feel responsible and even indebted to them, without cause. Satanism observes these leeches in their true light. Psychic vampires are individuals who drain others of their vital energy. This type of person can be found in all avenues of society. They fill no useful purpose in our lives, and are neither love objects nor true friends. Yet we feel responsible to the psychic vampire without knowing why.

If you think you may be the victim of such a person, there are a few simple rules which will help you form a decision. Is there a person you often call or visit, even though you really don't want to, because you know you will feel guilty if you don't? Or, do you find yourself constantly doing favors for one who doesn't come forward and ask, but hints? Often the psychic vampire will use reverse psychology, saying: "Oh, I couldn't ask you to do that" - and you, in turn, insist upon doing it. The psychic vampire never demands anything of you. That would be far too presumptuous. They simply let their wishes be known in subtle ways which will prevent them from being considered pests. They "wouldn't think of imposing" and are always content and willingly accept their lot, without the slightest complaint - outwardly!

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / Not All Vampires Suck Blood! (PDF)

Some People just dont deserve the time you'r giving them!!! Just give em the middle finger, n tell em: "kiss my ass"... Thats the way to deal!

No Big Difference After All

For example, Christians typically believe that the God of the Bible exists, but believe that Zeus, Thor, Krishna, and so forth, do not. A typical atheist joke is that there is only a small difference between a strong atheist and a Christian: they agree on a very long list of gods that don't exist, and disagree about only one of them. (source)

Debates Over Freedom - Part 2: The Dilemma

Statement of the dilemma: Choices affect our lives. The choices of others also affect us.... If one knows that their choice will induce unfavorable consequences to oneself, it makes perfect sense to consider alternative options, and probably refrain from acting out those initial choices.

Biased Freedom: Since consequences causes one choice to be favored over another, actions will lack variety; This variety is important for the Darwinistic evolution of actions... As human community has evolved Free Speech has been favored over brutality... Call it bias, and that won't be far from truth.

Protecting The Freedom of Speech: Variation of views is important for a healthy evolution of a community: If i were in your place, I'd take that as fact... Ideas just as individuals exhibit evolution over time: Some ideologies gain popularity and\or support, other are diminished! As ideas evolve community morals develop over time to accommodate supported ideologies of that time... In order to maintain a wide set of schools of thought, the Freedom of Speech need to be protected; Call it a fair fight of ideologies if you want... The concept is that ideas have to evolve for their own competence, rather than the strength of people supporting them.

Expression Instead of Repression: Individuals need a safe environment to discuss thoughts away from violence; Individuals need to be assured that their ideas will not be the cause of their damnation, but rather as a cause for the diversity needed in any human community; In all civilized communities such rights are protected! It is important to note that such policies enrich the communities enforcing those policies leading the community to fit better in a world of surprises.... Open discussion leads to enrich knowledge of all parties participating in such discussion... To have such open discussion all parties need to express their point of view; In a discussion there is only one weapon to use: debates... On the other side of the coin, legal threats or otherwise repress some parties in the discussion leading them to withhold their honest views; Such threats leads to counter-productive discussion, and leads to loss of honesty, integrity, and openness.

The Dilemma: Encouraging one party to share their views is not at all an easy task: How much protection does one need to feel at ease sharing their views; The other side of the question is: what action the offended party is allowed to... Even a non-violent action could lead that a party in a discussion to choose to withhold their honest views... If one party offends another, does that party have the right to take action? Even a non-violent action could discourage that offending party! Answers to those questions remain in the hands of participating parties, and the degree of openness they are aiming at....

Finally, I leave you with this cartoon to ponder.

In this series:
Debates Over Freedom - Part 1: Introduction
Debates Over Freedom - Part 2: The Dilemma
Debates Over Freedom - Part 3: Darwinistic Freedom
Next: Debates Over Freedom - Part 4: Pipe Dreams

Wanna Piece'o'Me Boy

I will never be safe,
I will never be sane,
I will always be weird inside,
I will always be lame.

-Everclear

Sometimes you don't need big words to tell the rest of the world how you feel.

PS: This post is a rip off

Satanism: The Physics Of Life

Christianity says: Don't kill! Why shouldn't I kill?..... I can kill, nothing stops me. Those kinds of laws presented by most religions are 'laws of man', created by man as stated before, and can be destroyed by man. Satanism DOES NOT present laws that we are supposed to follow. It presents the physics of life: THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE! It aims at understanding the mechanics of life so that we can get through it, so that we can make best use of the things at our disposal.

PS: This is a personal view of Satanism

The Random Factor

Is it really possible that our universe is not deterministic? Some physicists, especially quantum physics pioneers including but not limited to "Niels Bohr", claim that our world is not deterministic, and actually includes a probabilistic random factor. Many physicists, including but not limited to "Albert Einstein" one of the founders of the quantum theory refutes this indeterministic factor, and suggests the existence of a "local hidden variable"... thus Albert Einstein apparently supports the deterministic view of this world, and agrees that there is no such thing as unpredictability. (source)
The local hidden variable theory supports my personal view that: "Uncertainty is the direct consequence to lack of knowledge." (read more)

Yet, I find one stone in the road: In accordance to my personal understanding of the world, and assuming that the universe started as a singular point as the theory of big-bang suggests, its is very tempting to conclude that the universe should exhibit perfect symmetry.... Obviously our world has nothing to do with symmetry: A perfect symmetry is like a perfect sphere; our world is nothing like that! It is tempting to associate lack of randomness with symmetry... So does this mean that there is actually a "random factor" in this universe?

To better understand the argument it is useful to understand the basic assumptions:
1- Determinism
2- The world started as a singular point
3- A singular point is necessarily symmetrical
4- Expansion of the singular point under deterministic physics laws leads to universal symmetry
5- Lack of randomness implies symmetry (in other words, asymmetry needs randomness)
6- Determinism defies *deep* randomness (consider)
7- The universe is not perfectly symmetric

This argument is probably flawed; or maybe not.... The weakest link I think is the 4th assumption that expansion of a symmetrical point needs to be symmetrical under deterministic physics. Also the 3rd assumption that the singular point was symmetrical is not necessarily supported by big-bang theorists...

Please share any scientific or philosophical (or otherwise) views on this issue.... I am too eager to find a satisfying answer to this counter-determinism argument!

PS: The scientific validity of this post is NOT asserted

Cool Weblog: Express Yourself

To all cursing fans its time to express yourselves.... Check those two twin weblogs W-Air and W-Kiss...

The origins of these two expressive terms are from the Arabic language: W-Air translated as "suck a dick", and W-Kiss translated as "fuck sister's pussy".... Those are two of the most expressive words in the Arabic language, used mainly like the word "fuck" liberally in any context!

PS: The weblogs target Arabic language speakers (especially Lebanese dialect)
PS: The weblogs contain offensive language

Paying Respects To All Danish Newspapers

Thanks for speaking up; Thanks for honesty; Thanks for standing up to all cartoonists around the globe; Thanks for standing up to the highest standards of integrity; Thanks for for standing up to honorable goals; Thanks for shaking up the world; Thanks for standing up to professional journalism; Thanks for Freedom of Speech; Thanks for standing up against censorship; Thanks for the knowledge; Thanks for the truth;

I wish to see the whole world stand up next to Denmark, and never bow down to censorship requests from any party no matter how powerful, violent, terrorist, or uncivilized. I have to praise every newspaper that decided to publish the danish cartoons following the incident.

Special thanks goto 'Shihan', that although of legal liability has bravely decided to publish the cartoons; I feel it is nessary to say that i highly respect Jihad Momani's courage: A jordanian hero indeed! (read more)
Journalism is one of the most sacred and respectable buissiness around the globe; The voice of truth, and its a very sad incident that the jordanian authorities decided to censor all published editions of 'Shihan' that published the cartoons. Thanks again to Shihan and especially Jihad Momani!

In this spirit i wish all the newpapers around the globe would publish those cartoons; its time to flame all the extreme fundamentalists: let the war begin!

I felt terribly bad about the out-of-portion reactions taken, starting with the boycott campaign initiated by Saudi authorities; I felt bad that many people thought that they should punish the danes for speaking up their honest opinions (example)... I think its too cheap to try to repress Danish freedom of speech through their economy (not that they could, but just the concept): Yes, boycott action is a civilized and peaceful reaction, but in my opinion it is anti-honest!

The reaction escalated, violence started (as obviously expected) and rage started; One of the most horrible acts of violence was in Lebanon: The danish embassy was burnt down! Many lebanise citizens condemn such acts (example: 1 2)... Not only Lebanese citizens have condemned the violent reactions, but also some jordanians (among others) did too (example: 1 2 3)!

Update: Criticizing the Denmark as being selective in their boundaries over Free Speech, Iran published a cartoon which shows a devil -holding the danish flag bearing the Jewish six-pointed star of David- writing a scripture that says (translated from Arabic): "I only recognize the Holocaust as a boundary to Free Speech".

PS: why i think the boycott rxn is anti-honest will be explained in a future post
PS: Here are the Danish cartoons (deemed offensive by some authorities)
PS: check this article for elaborated discussion of the events
PS: check those cartoons that explain how those cartoons serve as a voive for the truth
PS: i am not affiliated with any political parties

Debates Over Freedom - Part 1: Introduction

What is the true sense of Freedom? I'd define it as choice of course of action. Not all actions necessarily lead to the desired outcome; this is the beauty of choice, each action has a different set of consequences, and the 'wise' choices are hard to define and\or identify.
Some people argue for Freedom, while some argue against that; Naturally, from an earthly perspective, we are all Free (in the sense of rebellion; contrast with an equally credible opposing argument). No "man-made" law has been able to stop people from unlawful acts; In this sense, its senseless to defend Freedom, since it cannot be abolished in the first place. If you come to think about it, somehow Freedom is self-preserving...

So what debate is held against Freedom? Roughly speaking, many people seek an authoritative party protecting people from themselves; In other words, protecting one person from another. So such party is required to define a set of social norms. Naturally, such norms outlaws several minorities, and yet some widely accepted parties. Consider how conservatives oppose liberals, or how dictators oppose the republicans, and several similar conflicts between major parties.

Human-rights advocates claim that Freedom is a basic human right; As far as I am concerned: Freedom is a human nature, even before admitting it as a human right! (based on the 'Freedom is self-preserving' argument) But let's face it, those human-rights advocates preach not true Freedom, but rather few forms of Freedom: they introduce terms such as: Freedom of Speech, Freedom of Expression; No-one hears them talking about Freedom of Brutality, or the Freedom to be a mass-murder: they claim this is inhumane...

PS: Humans are assumed to exhibit Free Will (which is highly debatable)

In this series:
Debates Over Freedom - Part 1: Introduction
Debates Over Freedom - Part 2: The Dilemma
Debates Over Freedom - Part 3: Darwinistic Freedom
Next: Debates Over Freedom - Part 4: Pipe Dreams

Selfish Unselfishness

Satanism represents a form of controlled selfishness. This does not mean that you never do anything for anyone else. If you do something to make someone for whom you care happy, his happiness will give you a sense of gratification.

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / Some Evidence Of New Satanic Age (PDF)

Yeah, lets not forget that we all are just selfish beings no matter how much evidence one holds against that!

Tagging Frenzy

Dont u just hate it when stupid word propagates widely through chaining? Its just like a virus... Today i choose to neglect that and respond nicely to some tagging; Kinda a childish way to introduce oneself... Im gonna answer two tags in one post!

First meme: (tagged by Tololy and sk8erboi)

Four Jobs I've had:
1. Student
2.
3.
4.

Four Movies I could watch over and over: (I dont re-watch movies fanatically)
1. Lost And Delirious
2. 40-Days 40-Nights
3. American Pie
4. Porn movies in general

Four Places I have lived:
1. Marka - Amman, Jordan (till age of 2)
2. Al-Rabiyeh - Amman, Jordan (current residence)
3. Bucharest, Romania (40 days only)
4.

Four TV Shows I Love to watch: (not a tv-freak either)
1. Becker
2. Seinfeld
3. Ally McBeal
4. Malcolm in the Middle


Four Places I've Been on Vacation:
1. Aqaba - Jordan (numerous times)
2. Turkey
3. Sharm El-Sheikh - Egypt
4. Brachov - Romania

Four Blogs I Visit Daily:
1. Tololy's Box
2. Tololy News
3. Border Of A Mind
4. Neowin.net

Four Favourite Foods:
1. Macaroni
2. Pizza
3. Barbeque
4. Shawerma 3rbi

Four Places I'd Rather Be:
1. Switzerland
2. USA (the Live Large states)
3. Hell (as in: go to Hell)
4.

Four Albums I Love:
1. Meteora - Linkin Park
2. IOWA - Slipknot
3. Anthems Of Rebellion - Arch Enemy
4. Silent Force - Within Temptation
5. Lest We Forget: The Best Of - Marilyn Manson

Four Vehicles I've Owned: (not mine, my Dad's)
1. Opel Vectra (which we sold as scrap since i made a horrible accident with it)
2. Kia Sephia
3.
4.

Four People I would pass the chain to: (chains are no good, so i will not go there)
1.
2.
3.
4.



Second meme: (implicitly tagged by Border Of A Mind)

Five facts about me:
1- Im an atheist (hopefully my ID will say that one day)
2- I love cursing, especially the word "fuck" (demonstration)
3- I hate it that i was raised in a third-world country
4- All my friends agree that i am an asshole
5- Im probably pornoholic

Three things I like in other people:
1- Open-mindness
2- Articulating skills (which i suck at)
3- Honesty and frankness

Three things I don't like in others: (only if the list can go on)
1- Irrationality
2- Exploiting others (especially "psychic vampires")
3- Intolerance towards different people, ideas, and the like.

The Right To Destroy Oneself

Defense: My client wants to terminate his own misery with the aid of a friend.
DA: Objection! We can't afford to lose some pathetic loser, who out of numerous disappointments in his life chooses consensually to terminate his own life.
Defense: Damn, I lose my case!

What's the fuss about getting 'court order' for assisted suicide?! I mean, it makes sense not to freely kill someone against their will... but assisted suicide?! That's stupid at best! Why does one have to take permission from some authority to kill someone who trusts them to terminate their life?!

You know what I think? If you want someone to kill you, you have only one friend: The drug dealer. Just pay him extra bucks to get you some good quality Ecstasy drug, take an overdose and die feeling the whole world is yours... and after all, that drug dealer has no legal liability over the incident, so you don't have to worry about your loyal friend being sued.
Just a thought.

PS: Try at your own risk

Maybe That Hideous Reflection Is Mine

Quoting Staind in "Outside":

But I'm on the outside
I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you (Full lyrics)

Slipknot -in their aggressive way- clearly state it in "I Am Hated":

Now I'm not pretty and I'm not cool
But I'm fat and I'm ugly and proud - so fuck you (Full lyrics)

Finally, Marilyn Manson seems to have a word on the subject, in his song "The Nobodies":

Yesterday I was dirty
Wanted to be pretty
I know now that I'm forever dirt (Full lyrics)

Shall I Say: Hail Satan?

If you do not believe in what your religion teaches, why continue to support a belief which is contradictory with your feelings. You would never vote for a person or issue you did not believe in, so why cast your ecclesiastical vote for a religion which is not consistent with your convictions? You have no right to complain about a political situation you have voted for or supported in any way - which includes sitting back and complacently agreeing with neighbors who approve the situation, just because you are too lazy or cowardly to speak your mind. So it is with religious balloting. Even if you cannot be aggressively honest about your opinions because of unfavorable consequences from employers, community leaders, etc., you can, at least, be honest with yourself. In the privacy of your own home and with close friends you must support religion which has YOUR best interests at heart.

source: The Satanic Bible, by Anton Lavey / Some Evidence Of New Satanic Age (PDF)

Oopsie, Google Speaks Arabic Now

While a friend was at my place it occured to us to make a search on google about some topic. To my ultimate embarrassment google speaks arabic now! "I didnt make it that way, I swear!" I reason. "Type the address again man, maybe you misspelled something." my friend suggests. It shows the same site... My friend notices something odd: "btw, why does the address bar show google.jo rather than google.com"... It occured to me then that they must have localized my page!! I gotta tell u a something: I HATE LOCALIZATION!
Finally i find a link that says: "English", and my day goes back to normal again.

Satanic Pride

Today, during my algorithms final exam, i had to sign on a paper that shows the names of the students with their total marks out of 60. My grade was 58, taking the lead (as is obviously expected). But something else other than the mark is right next to my name: two words, "Fuck you".
Obviously some guy who prefers to remain anonymous hates me. It made me feel good about myself, and kinda boosted my ego. It feels good to be loved by someone.... and it feels almost equaly good to be hated by someone else.

Sado Maso

A look at the dark side of our incomprehensible life:

Slipknot in their song "Vermillion Pt.2":

She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, She's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason (Full Lyrics)

Cradle of filth in "Nymphetamine":

Sick and weak from my condition
This lust, a vampyric addiction
To her alone in full submission
None better
Nymphetamine (Full Lyrics)

My own composition:

I hear you, but cannot see you
I see you, but cannot touch you
I touch you, but cannot feel you
I feel you, but cannot believe in you
Princess I am a slave to the darkness within your soul

Satanic Sex Philosophy

In a previous post i have introduced the band Rockbitch and provided download links to one of their live performances: Bitchcraft.

The following is an extracted quotation of a conversation between one reporter and the members of Rockbitch band found on that video:

Reporter: You guys are extreme, you have kinda pushed the boundaries as far as u can bloody push it!
All: NOO!!
Reporter: You havent?
Vocalist: No we havent. you know, sexuality is so eclectic, its a rainbow of experiences. we have hardly taped into the kinds of things that women like.
Performer: And positions.
Reporter: What happens when say, just two people in a bedroom... is that still exciting? or is it just like.....
Vocalist: No, you dont do that babe... thats boring... any sex between just two people should be illegal... it should be a legal responibility for everybody to expand their horizons...
(kidding and light gestures)
Vocalist: We dont profess that everybody in the world would find all the different things we do appropriate for their sexuality, but if you are able to have an open mind about a fist fucking or something else extremely extreme, then you will have an open mind about somebody else's politics, their sexual politics, or the color of their skin. if you have an open mind about sex, and can look at what we do, and be happy and say "ohh yeah!", this makes the world a better, happier, and healthier place.

Amen to that!

Comic Strips I Dig

Here are few comic strips I stumbled on recently and really liked:
- Capitalism sucks
- Straight people suck
- For the traditional?

Apathetic Rebellion

I admire the "keep it to yourself" attitude:
here is why...

Apathy Unveiled

Quoting from the song "Instinct" for Arch Enemy, consider this excerpt:

The more I see - the less I believe
The more I hear - the less I care
This world we've created, has left me cold
This world is sedated, dying in it's sleep

I feel nothing

Seen it written on a thousand faces
The simple truth we fear
Seen it happen in a thousand places
Instinct brought us here (Full lyrics)

Following that train of thought, we reach the same conclusion, that Marilyn Manson states clearly in his song "The Nobodies":

We are the nobodies
Wanna be somebodies
We're dead, we know just who we are (Full Lyrics)

Thats my personal inference of Darwinism.

Negativity is a talent - Round 2

Who can resist wisely-chosen well-spoken shrewdly-worded sarcasm?
ABSOLUTELY NOT ME!

As sequel to my previous "Negativity is a talent" title, i elect this link quotation.

PS: the quotation was ripped off a fellow blogger's post

Blessed Ignorance?

"Omniscience is also studied in game theory, where it is not necessarily an advantageous quality if one's omniscience is a published fact. For example, in the game of chicken: two people each drive a car towards the other. The first to swerve to avoid a collision loses. In such a game, the optimal outcome is to have your opponent swerve. The worst outcome is when nobody swerves. But if A knows that B is in fact omniscient, then A will simply decide to never swerve since A knows B will know A's logical decision and B will be forced to swerve to avoid a collision — this is assuming each player is logical and follows optimal strategy." (source)

"when i reminisce ignorance was bliss," (LimpBizkit - Lonely World)
"Ignorance is not bliss" (Arch Enemy - We Will Rise)

"A pain-in-the-ass partner? Lose so that he will lose." (Common Saying, translated from Arabic)
"Truth hurts." (Common Saying)

"he who dont make the work, makes others do it !!!" (Devil's Mind)

Which is a stronger weapon, wisdom or ignorance?! Ignorance is actually an exploit of knowledge. Sometimes, u just gain advantage by not knowing... Would u wanna know what u've been missing then?! Personally, i never repented what i know, although i did recognize at certain moments that ignorance would have been just easier.

Considering such dilemma, the question of 'to know or not to know' may not be as straightforward as it may seem initially, but effectively an optimal strategy is being wise, acting dumb! This might work for someone!

Fate: A Commonly Misunderstood Truth

"We may regard the present state of the universe as the effect of its past and the cause of its future. An intellect which at any given moment knew all of the forces that animate nature and the mutual positions of the beings that compose it, if this intellect were vast enough to submit the data to analysis, could condense into a single formula the movement of the greatest bodies of the universe and that of the lightest atom; for such an intellect nothing could be uncertain and the future just like the past would be present before its eyes." (source)

-Marquis Pierre Simon de Laplace

"Uncertainty is the direct consequence to lack of knowledge."
"Probability is the science of dealing with lack of science."
"Fate can be pre-calculated."

-Devil's Mind

To look more on the matter, read articles about:
determinism, materialism, free will,
compatibilism, uncertainty, butterfly effect

Free Knowledge Is Not A Myth

Knowledge is not a property. Knowledge is not some poison. Knowledge doesnt make you a criminal. Everyone has the right to be selfish. Everyone has the right to withhold his knowledge from others. But (i think) it is through sharing of knowledge the whole world can prosper. Thats the real spirit.

Although knowledge is suppressed in many contexts by several ways, including patents and intellectual property, or through censorship and encryption of information, yet i see a flame blazing in the skies. It is just simple proof of concept, but it speaks so loudly.
This success story has a name: its called wikipedia....

Censorship In Its Ugliest Forms

Censorship is an unethical act that abuses the basic human rights of freedom, free speech, free expression, and individuality. It also deprives the human community of knowledge and experiences needed to for it to flourish and reach technological advancement. Thus censorship abuses humans as individuals, and as collective community. Censorship is usually pracriced by many governments and organizations to protect their interests by depriving the public of information. Violent acts against offending parties has also been practiced throughout history.

In not-so-new news, microsoft has been obliged by the chinese authorities to censor many blogs from chinese users. Following some links in that article, i have reached some more horrible citations of censorship acts practiced in china, including violence against "Falun Gong" and other parties.

Someone, may or may not, support organizations such as "Falun Gong" which are depressiated by some governments, but we need to stand for each and everyone's right to promote their ideologies in any proper way they please.

PS: i am not affiliated with any political parties

Some New Year

Q: whats up? A: its 2006.... yeah, thats true, some new year has begun: a year full of shit that we have to take. luckily, its one year towards to the end....
guess its a tough call, best wishes for a happy 2006!

Stressful Week: Delivering Final Project Versions

Deadlines are a headache, especially when you are not ready for them.... long sleepless nights spent to do what needs to be done.... hell im so tired, yet i cant find time for rest! this how it was like for the past three days, and probably two of my comin days. HELL!!!
A yesterday i handed a "software engineering" project, a 50-paged handout had to be ready in like three days, and with deadly efforts it wuz completed. Now its turn for the "database" project to be delivered due this wednesday! Gimmie a break here :'(

Update: holy shit, we'r done :D

Funny Video: Don't Spam Me

Check this funny video titled "Farm Sluts"

The Art Of Writing Unbiased Articles

I found an article on the wikipedia which provides guidelines and rules of the thumb on how to write unbiased, objective articles. In their terminology, POV (point of view) is a biased statement, as oposed to NPOV (neutral point of view) which is an unbiased statement. They stress the importance that, an unbiased article can include a POV; but to ensure that the whole article is not biased, these articles need to site more than one POV in an objective, non-judgemental approach.
I encourage you to read the full article

Lost And Delirious: A Lesbian Love Story

Lost and delirious is almost just another love story, but with a slight twist. The heros of this film are three girlfiriends, two of which are lovers. Although this kind of plot is not unique to this film, i think lost and delirious is really hell of a story. Recommended!

"RAGE MORE!", Paulie's favorite quote sums up all that you can to expect from her character in that movie. A wild passionate character, loaded with strong determination and a nerve to stand for what she believes. Paulie's love, Tory, on the other hand, tries hard to be a model of what her parents expect her to be, and when her relationship with Paulie was compromised, being afraid to lose her parents' support denies Paulie of her love and starts looking for a boyfriend to prove that she is straight.
Mary, who is called Mouse, is Paulie's and Tory's friend, a shy, honest, and loving character. She cannot take sides. She tries her best to stand next to Paulie in her hard-time, in the time Tory cannot be there for here.

Quotes from the movie
A fan site to L&D

Would U Let The Covers Fall Away?

From a cool song for Avril Lavign called "Naked", i quote:

You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right

I'm tyring to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away

Avril calls it "Naked"; for someother people it is called "Striptease", and if it is caught on tape, it becomes "Pornography".... whatever u choose to call it.... would u do it?

here is full lyrics of "Naked"

PS: Naked is a really cool song, if u have never listened to it.... well, u should! Its one of my favorite songs!

The FUCK Anthem

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

FUCK Life FUCK Shit FUCK People
FUCK Asses FUCK Pussies FUCK Dickheads
FUCK Everything i do, FUCK Everything i am,
FUCK Everything i care for, FUCK Everything i look for,
FUCK Everything i whatever, FUCK EVERYTHING
FUCK IT ALL
FUCK ME

FUCK FUCK 00100

Hey, it's on
Everybody knows this song

Ain't it a shame that you can't say "Fuck"
Fuck's just a word
And it's all fucked up
(quoting LimpBizkit - Hotdog)

Cool Geeky Stuff

My friend Ghaith keeps his tradition of hooking me to his cool inventions! man wtf, thats cool shit....
Hardware interfacing is one of the most important links between hardware programming and software programming, and is probably the gap that separates computer engineering students from computer science students.
If you are a computer engineering student who has no idea of how to make similar circuits, the "digital logic design" course, and later on, its lab will provide you of the first steps in the correct direction. I didnt take the digital logic design lab yet! cant wait till i take that course, and Ghaith isnt making that wait easy at all! :S .... if i were a girl, looking at these circuits, my pussy would be drooping now ;) :P

Rockbitch: A Satanic Rock Band

Few days ago, i download a live concert called "bitchcraft", featuring "rockbitch". rockbitch is a band of Matriarchal satanists, it consists mostly of lesbian whores. the concert is really cool, and presents several satanic rituals and beliefs related to matriarchal satanism.
This page briefs the belief of rockbitch. bitchcraft is a real rock party, y'all rock fans dont miss watching it.

The band has been awarded the "diamond condom award" back in 1998.
i picked this quote from the award page:

The group ROCKBITCH are six women and one man that have emerged from a larger community of people (mainly female), who live a life based on a different code of behavior than that of fear and distrust.Believing, as they do, that Sex is the basic engine of Life. That, of all species, humans have the greatest potential for a harmonious way of life based on an elevated consciousness through sexual sharing.

here is a torrent for the concert. (you can use utorrent to download the file.) the download size is 800MBs.

PS: please note that the concert includes nudity, and explicit sexual shows.

Systems Of Belief

As i was browsing the internet, i stumbled on a reasonably cool quiz, its about different systems of beliefs, and down to which one u most resemble.

i took the quiz, then after some minuits later, took it once again,,, thus i got two results... i generally do this because at different times u answer the same questions differently... so u gotta check for that!

one obvious difference is how much i scored on 'cultural creative' with only 38% on first go, and astonishing 69% on the second go! i quite honestly dont know what this 'cultural creativity' is!
other scores were stable, and had only a slight marginal difference!

check the quiz at: What is Your World View? (updated)

You scored as Materialist. Materialism stresses the essence of fundamental particles. Everything that exists is purely physical matter and there is no special force that holds life together. You believe that anything can be explained by breaking it up into its pieces. i.e. the big picture can be understood by its smaller elements.

System	Average Score	1st Go	2nd Go
Materialist		100%	100%
Modernist		88%	94%
Existentialist		63%	69%
Postmodernist		63%	63%
Idealist		63%	63%
Fundamentalist		56%	56%
Cultural Creative		38%	69%
Romanticist		31%	31%

Bonsai Kitten: The Proof Of Cruelty

A proof of concept prank website, attempting to demonstrate the true nature of humans.... The site is called Bonsai kittens.
The site has tendency to offend anyone with sympathy towards other humans or animals alike... There is no real evidence wether this is fake or not, but it probably is just a hoax according to some website(s).

Its time to be proud we are born humans!

Who's to say, what's fair to say, and what not to say?

In a controversial song for eminem called "Rain Man", i quote this part: (the title is also a quote from the same song)

You find me offensive? I find you offensive
For finding me offensive
Hence if I should draw a line on any fences
If so to what extense if
Any, should I go? 'Cause it's getting expensive
Being on the other side of the courtroom on the defensive
They say that I cause extensive
Pshycological nerve damage to the brain when I go to lenghts this,
Far at other people's expenses
I say your all just too god damn sensitive
It's censorship
And it's down right blasphomous
Listen to shit now cause I won't stand for this (Full lyrics)

The whole song is great with numerous cool mental images teasing your brain. Eminem should not be (and is probably not) the only man fighting hypocrisy selled in this world through bullshit... Man keep it up, and those who are offended are pussies and hypocrites not worth the headphones they put on their ears!

Terrorists Bomb Three Hotels In Amman

Amman the capital of Jordan has been the target of some suicide bombers.
I dont have much to say about the subject....
I'll suffice with few words: FUCK YOU REAL MOTHER-FUCKERS!!

We are against terrorism, and today, we now have extra motivation to say FUCK OFF to terrorism!

DIE MOTHER-FUCKERS.... DIE....

Edit: this event reminds me of a previous post, most of us simply dont understand how some people carry all this hate in their heads... i'd say this is a case of when shit happens.

Edit2: i have came accross this touching picture and thought it might help understand the pain of the victims of such barbarian terrorist acts:

Queen Rania of Jordan wipes the tears of a wounded woman at a hospital in Amman (this picture is taken from arabia.msn.com news section)

Spyware Is Getting Too Far

in recent news, Sony is caught installing spyware as part of music CDs protection. the spyware is illegal software, and it was belived that it is being installed by less reputable software makers (until Sony decided to break the rule)! attempting to uninstall the spyware with traditional anti-spyware tools makes it impossible to boot into windows..... thats plain bullshit! to make the matters worse, the spyware installs with autorun, so all you need is insert the CD in the drive, and there you go, u'r infected! there was no mention of 3rd party spyware being bundled with copy-protected music CDs in the EULA or anyother document: guess Sony has just destroyed its own reputation, and is waiting for the first person to start a lawsuit! i hope someone will get their asses, because the last thing we need is broken trust with reputable software sources! that shit is now haunting the computer industry!

click here for a blog entry of the investigation

Update: Microsoft has updated its spyware definitions as to remove Sony's DRM software!

Update2: Sony says it will discontinue distribution of its DRM software, which could pose a "rootkit" security threat to users.

Shit Happens

Yeah, yeah, thats nothing new... Its just been a long time since i posted something so i thought: 'lets write about something! or actually anything!'
You know this feeling when nothing seems to go right..... its not exactly that something bad is going on, its just a bad hunch! Thats how it feels for me my whole life... insecurities neglected by apathy; hopes crushed by insignificance; decisions abandoned by lack of faith, and fear of rejection.....
thats just how it seemed all of the time!

Shit happens, in other words, anything you do can get fucked up.... thats what i know.

Have a nice day :P

Read A Review On VB.NET 2005

visual studio .net 2005 is about to be released (expected date: Nov 2005), this release is a great step in software development. so if u are a software developer who still uses visual studio 6, its time to move on.... thats my opinion, back when visual studio 2002, and later when 2003, were released, i wasnt too keen to upgrade... i simply though that .net simply needed to mature... with this release it has matured enough for my personal taste.
a friend of mine agrees, and thus spared a little of his time to write a review of this coming release. if you want to know more about the new features that .net introduces, maybe his review will be an inspiration.

Its A Crazy World Out There

In this thread on some forums, is a collection of some weird news from the year 2005.
the story i really liked is the last one (at the time i post this). it goes like this:

Man Digs Up Corpse at Cemetery to Fake His Own Death
GEORGETOWN, TX. - Molly Daniels, who was accused of faking her husband's death to collect insurance benefits, pleaded guilty to charges of insurance fraud and hindering apprehension. Facing 20 years in prison, a jury will recommend her sentence.

Her husband, Clayton Wayne Daniels, is currently in jail awaiting trial on charges of arson. The husband stands accused of digging up a body from a cemetery, putting it in his car and setting the vehicle on fire.

The body was that of 81-year-old Charlotte Davis, who has been dead since 2003. Afterwards, the wife introduced her "new boyfriend" to her 4-year-old son. The "boyfriend" was actually her husband with his hair dyed black.

Elfen Lied: Greatest Anime Series I Ever Watched

This anime exceeds the expectations of any casual TV-drama fan, its one of a kind story shows some genuine creativity and deep skills of the author(s) to move almost any human...
According to one fan site, "Elfenlied" is the german version of "elf song", pronounced as if it were spelled in english "Elfenleet".

The main character of the story is more of a "killing machine", its a mutant that escaped a secret facility where she was quarantined for over five years... that secret facility quarantines all diclonius (human-like beings with horns on their heads), and conducts several bloody tests on them.

Lucy (the main character) after escaping the facility gets shot and falls off a cliff into the ocean, aparently causing split personality disorder... her new personality is peaceful and literally a new baby, she even forgot her mother language, and she needs to learn language from scratch... but the killer side comes into action whenever she is in danger.

The secondary character is guy who came back to his home town after almost eight years... back then eight years ago, his whole family was murdured brutally infront of his eyes on a train, causing him severe trauma, and then he was sent to a hospital where he was forced to erase all his past memories of that period.... amoung the stuff he had to forget were his promises to his cousin, who after all these years welcomes him to his home town... she has not forgotten the promises, and she actually was willing that he would still rememmber... but in vain....
Aparently there are much more complicated memories that he had forgotten, and more promises waiting to be fulfilled...
But i will not be telling you the whole story,, so my recommendation is that you watch this series because it is really good drama, and you might really need the tissue this time ;) :P


here you will find the torrent for this series.
if u are not sure how to use this file, here is a starting point.
note that the download size 2GBs so you'll need some kind broadband to download it.
if you already watched it, you might be interested in this fan site.

Virtual Machines And Microsoft's Virtual PC Program

following my hardware upgrade, my computer have become powerfull enough to run a cool technology called "Virtutal Machines", this technology is actually computer hardware emulated through software; so effectively you can create an imaginary computer within your environment and install and test software on it seperately from the currently installed OS. this software have been a great help when trying to test my several linux distributions that i downloaded recently from the internet. you don't have to worry about messing with the new OS at the risk of deleting your data, you dont have to worry anymore about re-partitioning your hard disk... better yet you dont have to log off windows to work on linux, you can do both at the same time on the same screen.
i highly suggest testing for people who are interested in technology, and those whose hardware can support its load.... i can run maintaining very acceptable performace two virtual machines with my 1GB RAM, i guess anyone with 512MBs or more can support at least one virtual machine.

there are several programs that can emulate a computer... the one i used is microsoft's virtual pc, others include another well-known product in that field VMware.

To read more about virtual machine check here and here
Download microsoft's virtual pc 45-days trial edition from here

Computer Hardware Upgrade

after installing ADSL my computing requirements increased.... more downloads meant need for higher storage capacity.... more programs downloaded meant more free RAM needed... OS downloads meant need for a testing medium for these OSes.
two days ago i got 1GB RAM, and a new 80GBs HDD so making the total storage capacity of my computer 200GBs.
installing new RAMs was a little problematic, especially when i tried to use my old RAMs with my new RAMs, i had to stop being greedy and have enough with my newly bought 1GB RAMs. the hard disk was more of a problem: initially i had two problems, i had no space for my new hard disk to place it in, so i had to remove the floppy temporarily and place the hard disk in its place... the other problem that i had no electricity plugs left for it, so again i temporarily used my cd's plug instead. today i sent my computer to the maintenance and they managed to allocate place for the new hard disk and plug it to electricity.
i love my computer more now :D